to satisfy my eyes

okay, imma show you some pictures of my ex boyfriend's, cousin
dayemn he's hot, hahaha
well somehow, he looks like Justin Bieber (:

He does looks like a model kan kan ?


I received a text msg from Hijaz just now,
he wants be to be at the Sd Club with his snow cap
but its a last minute thang, so i couldnt go
i wish im there (: but im so sorry, i couldnt make it
perhaps some other day ?
p/s : you owe me an ice cream dude

you wont try to save me

you just want to hurt me and leave me desperate

isnt that true honey ?

you can hurt me as much as you want now,

do it as long as you want

tear me up !

i admit, i miss everything

i admit, i didnt loved you as much as you did

but you know how much i love you now

and you're hurting me

you've ruin my happiness

you have no idea what you did

but you shouldnt treat me and talk to me that way

i think i should give up

whats the use waiting for someone who treats us bad

i will, will try to save myself

does that means i'll still wait for you ?

they'll turn out to be memories

i had fun laughing from morning till evening at school
ahaha, it was awesome
today was the last day of school for 2009
so awesome, ive been waiting for this moment
but sadly, i want to go to school again, wake up every morning again
talk to myself every morning, i want all that to keep going on over and over again
but of course when you come to one stage, you'll get bored of it, but still i am missing it
haha weird
fafa has never liked waking up in the morning, seriously

alright, so
i told you i had fun laughing from morning UNTIL evening which is until 2.30 pm
i laughed because of Safwan's stupidity & attitude
he's so blur, and loud and cute haha
he does whatever i do haha
i love stomping my legs whenever i didnt get something i want
so yeah, i told Safwan to tuck in his shirt, but he doesnt want to
i told him and tried to convince him that he looks CUTE and sooo foine
but i failed then i stomped my feet
he did the same thing with his eyes closed
sooo the very the friggin' adorable (':
he's been the clown of the day to me, thanks Safwonnn

alright, enough of that part
one thing for sure, i laughed so hard even Meyshna was laughing badly too
haha
Well, Erin controlled her laugh xD so cute

so right after school, i am supposed to meet My Tania at Mcd
but then she cant stay there until 2.30 which is sampai i habis school
then she asked me to come over to her place
i asked my mum then she said okay, she bought Mcd for my lunch then straight away send me to Tania's place yo yo.
we spend our quality time together gether like gether gether
haha
seriously, that punk is awesome man, hehehek (':
the part where i batuk so hard x)
im sorry, i didnt mean to worry you (:


alright, thats all for today folks !

overboard, too far & too much

im telling you

you've gone

overboard, & too far honey too much honey

it hurts

yeah a lot

my best friend told me that i am not suppose to have these feelings for you

because you treated me like a piece of shit

you treated me like im nobody to you

yes i know, i hurt-ed you badly ONCE

but it wasnt purposely

you've been such a lovely man to me before this incident happens

and why are you like this now ?

does this makes you feel a lot more better ?

by hurting me all the time ?

congratulations, you did hurt me, you manage to hurt me badly

happy now ?

what else ? i am being good to you, very patient towards you

and this is what i get ?

whoa, this is nice honey

i'll pray, for you and me

i'll pray that you'll be happy till the end

and i'll pray for myself, pray that i'll get over everything and i'll be as happy as a clown

you're the place my life begins, and you'll be where it ends

i told my sister, Aisha

' but i couldnt forget all those memories,what he did, what we had, its soo hard ' - fafa

' because they're memories Fa, memories are meant to be the pasts ' - Aisha

im trying my hardest,

dont help me to move on

yeah you're just a boy

but not just a boy to me

you're The Boy who made me fell deeply truly in love with you

and i swaer, i still love you

i've never felt this way towards any guy

you made me feel special every second

you can say that i moved on, but thats not true

i still need you everyday

i still hear your voice everynight before i sleep

i still have your face in my mind everyday

they never fade away

and finally yesterday, i get to hear your voice again ever since i broke up with you

we get to talk and i did expressed whatever im having in my heart

ive let them out of my chest

but it doesnt get any better

im still broken and hurt, i want you back i said

and you answered ' why now Fa ? '

i couldnt tell you why, i couldnt find the reason why

but one thing for sure, I love you Ali

i told you i would wait for you, no matter how long it takes but you said ' dont fa, move on, i know you can have better guys than me '

but why cant i have you ? i said. ' because i wanna be Ali, i wanna be free. do you like seeing me flirting with othr girls ? he answered

so are you trying to say that im too pushy ? ' No.but find other guys fa, i know you can. '

the truth is i really cant

i tried so hard to like other guys, love them

but it doesnt work

andwhen i started to cry, you asked me

' are you crying ? ' - ali

' no i am not ' - fafa

' then why are your eyes red ? ' - ali

' no they're not red ' fafa

' why is your nose wet ? ' -ali

'NO ITS NOT WET ' - fafa

' why cant you smile now ? tell me ' - ali

' because im laughing ' -fafa

' i cant hear you laughing, ' -ali

' because you're deaf ' -fafa

the way you asks me questions, made me cry

i couldnt take it without you

seriously

the conversation above is the same as this conversation, the one we had before when we are together

' are you recording ? ' -ali

' no im not ' -fafa

' then what's that sound ? ' -ali

' haha i dont know '-fafa

' then why are you smiling ? ' -ali

' no im not smiling ohmygod ' -fafa

you talk as if you could see me

you're different and thats why im in love with you

the way you cared about me, its like my dad

yesterday was the only day which i cried so hard for a guy

honestly, ive never cried this much for any other guys

ive never been this desperate for a guy

im a girl with big ego, BIG EGO

but i put my ego a side yesterday, just because of i want you back

can't you see how much i love you ?

you're tellng me that im blind that i couldnt see other guys which are way better than you

and you're blind too, for not seeing how much i love you

i know before it used to be you the one who calls me everytime, everyday

who says 'i love you' every sec

but it changed, im being the old you

and why did you changed and decided to be a worst one?

you werent like that before

and when you say ' i love you ' to me, yesterday,

i felt it so deep in my heart

and thats why i kept quiet for few seconds

i want you to know how much i love you

i love you

have my words

i swear its true

whatever it is, i think you just need sometime

i'll leave you for a moment

let you think whats right and wrong

to let you make a real decision

take care, Ben 10 <3

take my hand and hold it tight

aisha's squeaky voice woke me up this morning -__-
so we had our breakfast at Nks, and then we straight away went to SSF
gosh, no wonder my mom doesnt wanna go there anymore
haha, the furnitures are so so so so gorgeous
i couldnt drool over each and every anymore hahah

i wanna go out, but my mom needs my help to clean up the house
Aisha is busy with assignments
abah went overseas, im missing him already

tonight, perhaps im going to Desa Parkcity with Aisha & Qist

im so bored
i wanna play guitar hero again with Erin
i dnt care how suck am i at it, i still wanna play it over and over again
hahaha

ImissyouTyson

carry me home and let's start a new chapter of us

i dont care if i die,but not being with u..is truly death himself.
pls giv me more time..to be with u.
if u dont love me.
dont tell me...
i couldnt take it..lie to me.
at least let me die smiling.
thats all i want...i love u.

so, today started with me and erin went to SMK BU3

there was a carnival

the main purpose of going there is to see YUNUS, Alia & her gang

but then, when we arrived there,

Alia and her gang dah dekat ou, while Yunus pulak couldnt make it to bu3

but he's going to One Utama

sooo, with an unplanned plan, we took the cab and off to One Utama

when we arrived there, we straight away walked to the karokae rooms

so we karokae-ed with Edlyn, Nadiah, Amalyna, Jaiza, Nadia and Lisa Haniff not to forget, Erin hee

it was so fun, we sang Jai ho, Miss independent, Single Ladies

after that Erin and i decided to go somewhere else

so we went haagen daz

while we were walking, then i saw Danial Zharif, Fareez, Acip & Fikri

awh, i gave them a hug then we ( erin and i ) walked back to the karokae room

we were so hungry then we ate at Pizza Milano i had chicken lasagne'

so awesomee, it was so tasty

while we were eating, i talked to alia ameera about my ex

she was thinkng that he had changed his number

* sighs *

he's performing at ttdi, Qallif asked me am i going to a gig at ttdi ?

i was like, i wanted to, but neah thats okay

i told my mom about it, she was so-so of letting me go there

right after we lepak-ed at One Utama, Erin mom's picked us up and she brought us to Shah Alam

dayem, Aunty Lynn's house is huge and pretty and and nice

i aslo didnt missed my chance to learn play piano,

i learnt two songs paparazzi by lady gaga and love story by taylor swift

i felt so happy (':

oh and Aunty Lynn's daughter, played bella's lullaby

my godness,my heart felt so good .. ah .. so undescribeable

after spending few hours at shah alam,

i went to Erin's house and we played guitar hero

awesomeeeeeeee after guitar hero, we watched movie, ' The Big Stan'

then my mom called, she was missing me, i guess xD

cause i wasnt at home since morning

haha, went back home and had dinner at group base

so now, im home wee woo weee

istillremembermyTyson<3